Friday, December 28, 2007

Sunday, November 11, 2007

Dream 10_9_2007

I had two separate dreams yesterday and i hope i can recollect them.

ah , let me narrate the first . I am attending university to complete my studies . The class room is , let me close my eyes & visualize, a big room having a capacity to seat 50 -60 individual. I do not remember seeing any of those faces. I remember going to room where i am supposed to reside, i am appalled by the rooms available, room mate making a statement welcome to university. The test result were announce , i was hoping to get high score , i do remember the score i got 54 however i do not remember the total 75 or 100. Among three subjects in which examination was held, one was language , i got "1" in language. Why did i come back to study ? i getting screwed up and dream ends.

I and my friend we both are waiting int the railway station, waiting for a friend whom i have invited to arrive. we are standing on the opposite side of the platform, the train arrives and we are looking around. As we were searching , some one comes and ask me " are u selvaraj ?" I said "i am " and reply came "ur friend is waiting for u". we four walk towards the over head bridge, my friend is happily talking withe both of them. I thought why do not i take a shorter path , i jump over track and climb on the next platform. I reached the over head bridge, I find water dripping from the roof and the dream ends. M R

Blosgspot problem

Few days back a problem was resolved which was huge relief to me, i was able to open the blogger website in my web browser art home. I do not know how it got resolved , it just happend.

When i used to open the web pages the status bar will show that the pages are being loaded, but after ages it will still show it was loading. Same situation prevailed in IE. I reinstalled Jave runtime machine, reinstalled the patches for java and removed many other related software. The problem still existed.

In vain i dropped it and quiet forgot all about it. One fine day there was update for firefox and i installed it. I remember that i had a problem and tried to access the blogger page. Now page opened up , least i was expecting. Now i can visit page from blogger.com

Thursday, October 04, 2007

Research paper pathos

I have a long standing desire to make a paper presentation in the field of my interest. My first paper submission was in my first year B.E. It was paper in physics and i was selected. My physics professor said if u are really prepared for presentation then attend the session do not make a sloppy presentation. I did not make the presentation.

I wanted to write a research paper where i done research, downloading papers from the net and submitting it was not what i wished for, was my ideology during my college days. Sticking to my ideology, I have not produced any paper so far. I did not have expectation from my staff, add to it, i was too confused what my real interest are. I was obsessed with the idea of having a simulation run using scientific tool , which tools to use was/is a big "?"

Most of the people use Matlab, but i found it not so interesting. I searched the net, found various other tools which does the equivalent work, now question is how to learn to use them? , if any issues crop up whom can i approach. I made a decision to use scilab

Lately i have realised it my dilemma which had consumed a lot of my time and took a decision to stick to single scientific tools and to stick the area i have chosen.

But the Mother of Evil "Maths" has caused bruises, rash, boils, nausea sensation , i can not name it , i loose my appetite when i think about it.

I do not know when i will submit a research paper, hope i make one.

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Dreams

My dreams ,

Many come in my dreams, but i donot know why they turn up in my dreams. I do not remember all my dream, some i do, lastest one has actually two seperate segment which has no link with each, let me try to describe what i can remember.

The first starts with a scenario where i am standing near railway station gate. I have been called for job by two of my colleagues Kasi and Satish. The train arrives , both of them hop to the train, hagging like monkey waving hands to me, the people cribbing for this act . They both winked at me and said the train has to go back the in the same track so wait . The next i remember i have reached the place of work . It is high tech research / defence organization . I inquire them why have u called me to join u ? , reply was u know the job . The path was narrow between two walls with stairs coming down for the door ...and my dream ends here ...

In the second i am attending a marriage of my colleague. In the reception/ party a film was being shown in which her "would be" has acted as hero . I find another friend in the same party having a nap in the sofa. I was surprised to find him because because both do not know each other (that is my gut feeling). I find people are having food, food is arranged in buffet. The wall is actually a glass panel and the people are standing between the wall and the buffet table, the dream ends.

Strange it is but i do not how to decipher this dreams but when i woke up i was fresh

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

The Man who moved the mountains

Hi , i am not a regular blogger ,but i would like to blog often. The words does not follow , it trickles down , or may it is because i think few words are enough to put our thoughts .

Okay lets come to the topic , read the link given below. It is about a humble person who moved the mountain , no iam not joking, he moved the mountain bit by bit for twenty years started at the age of 60 , after 20 years completed his mission . He was given state honour when he died.

The Man who moved the mountains

Friday, July 13, 2007

To my friend

After four years I meet her, wondered whether she will be the same. She got married and now doing management course. I phoned her the day before, she replied arrive at the gate and she will direct me further. She added she was going to movie and was having class the next day morning, my another friend stated there is a party and because of the party no class will be held because of the party. His reply made me decided the get together will be short.

After a hectic travel i reached the designated location and call up my friend , as promised she asked me to meet her in the reception . I dropped my friend and walked the way to reception. I meet her, she had the same look as four years before, which i did not expect . She took me on a short trip around meet few of her friends, words started to flow more smoothly then it were before.

I had informed her about my friend, she was not able to find any such. She requested me for an introduction and i introduce her to my friend and why his name was not familiar he was introvert. The initial decision of having a short talk now stretched to longer time we continue for another one hour we hit most of the topic. It was almost time for another appointment , said "good bye" to her and i was on my way.

It felt good talking to an old friend and to find people unchanged by time.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

[Fwd: Thank you all....]

This is mail sent by my colleague who completed 2 years today and his
first job too ..

July 11th 2005, the day i meet you all. These two pleasant years will be in my memory for ever. My greatest pal Athreya, who had been my team mate for more than a year and a half . I just enjoyed every moment of his company, as a great friend, team mate and now as my room mate. My most favorite Prof, I just love calling you "professor".... and also i enjoy when u call me"Worst fellow". And I love troubling, cracking jokes and playing with you and still I don't know why. Ever smiling Shinoj, The DMA specialist haha... I will remember your soft voice and how u bluff barani. Some times when i look at the chair behind me, i feel missing u. The funniest Pradeepreddy.................................... my partner while doing FIR filter in training session and even Prof was with us, scaring us both using malloc, calloc, dsp_buff, data_buff.. First guy to write code directly in integrated version and your optimised code matching complier generated code(i know how trickily you copy the complier generated code and put it in your workspace )... Hey reddy your snacks are still here in your place, you can take it when ever you want.... The most helpful Sumalatha, she was there when i had SCARY cod_amr to code, helping me to fix my bug. I was under lot of pressure while coding that, your presence at that time was invaluable... I simply admire your patience and dedication to work.... Acrobate Reader
(satish prabu) highly talented and self motivated guy. Mostly i have seen him reading through some IEEE papers. Has a lot of knowledge on speech and mathematics. Thanks for all the advices that you gave me buddy... i am very grateful..... Deepa, we had our written test on the
same day and i know her from then. We both like teasing each other... For the past two days deepa is in great form. :-) Very clever when it comes to managing things. She knows how to get things done easily, i should learn that from you. Swaminathan calm and silent candidate, When
ever i logging in LAN messenger, he would log out.. hahahaha... :-D .... Mr.Pokiri pongal.... matching dress, nice shoes trade mark for him... Great dancer and very bad singer hahaha... Baby boi(palani), hmmmm.... what ever you want to know about company, you can ask him. He ll have all the latest news of the company. Harris, my current project mate, there is one common feature between us, can u guess? lol... Last but not the least............................. The one and only DR. Debugger Dinesh, instead of reporting me to fix the bug in my module, he would fix and tell me what the bug is... A guy with lot of patience and concentration. Certainly i have to learn how to sit in a place for hours and work. Still amazes me how fast you can fix a bug.

And now to my Great Gurus.... Kadhir sir and prakash sir, I know how much effort you have put in all of us, thanks a million. So much we learned from you. you both are our role models at work.
My friendly TL, Selvaraj sir, he knows my strength and weakness better than me. He had given me lot of freedom at work, which gave me a opportunity to think and implement different designs. Thank you sir. and sorry for all late submissions..

I am very thankful to all. All your presence has made a big difference in my life.

Love you all
Madan

Monday, July 09, 2007

The contrast

Last week I went on tour to Hyderabad and much to the disturbance of the co passengers we talked and talked , our topic shifted from one plane to another and arguments danced. One gentleman who was having his nap, followed our conversation. Later on he involved himself in our discussion. I expect all the wisdom of old age to be upon us preaching how great were the olden time but he spoke with an attitude towards the various aspect of life which was quiet surprising to hear, his ethic was based on the following line, follow Ramayana / Mahabarat for their moral value rather trying to prove there chronological existence.

He was AIIMS graduate of 1970 batch served his entire life as doctor. His daily routine involves going to villages and provide medical service free of cost to the villagers. He has his own private service to support himself and extra money goes for the medicine. He was given a car by his daughter to enable him to visit various villages. We had a good time discussion various ideologies, next morning we bade farewell to each other.

I visited my friend at the ISB campus on sunday, meet her after four years. Going around the campus I meet few people and each gave a short glimpse of the life in ISB. Then came a short session with my colleagues brother who gave his own motivation. The crux is about "power" , "money" and "career".

Now the contrast "The doctor" and "The ISB". The doctor choose "service to society" as his first motto and and is a happy man by his own standards . ISB choose "service to myself" and they are happy too .

Had i not meet the doctor i would not have visualized this contrast and it has made me ponder why ???????

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

The annual day - 2

After a record 12 hour journey to Bangalore we reach "The Green valley" the lap of nature . I missed something, the front glass of the bus broke, the driver demanded the money for the repair of the glass otherwise the bus will not move. People were dead tried and this was not how things are supposed to happen, however they reined their tongue .

At the resort not even a single person ( other than the organizer) had a clue what was happening , ants flying around, the food was cold, few went to get cool drinks only to be told will not be provided. People got really pissed off, many mouths started to speak about the way they things have been handled. Loud voiced clearly stated their intention.

Okay lets move away from this issues i do not have words to describe the melodrama. With their own money they bought the cool drinks and helped them self. Another group , actually they were regulars to the place, was having a great time to the DJ music, many just sat down and watched the show. For many this was the first time, they were actually seeing disco-thee. Booze and the dance made many realize why people are crazy about coming to "the happening city". I was too tried and went to bed.

Thursday, June 14, 2007

The annual day - 1

So like every company with its HR policies we had our annual day. No one in his wildest senses could have expected what happened . we started our journey on the faithful day 27/5/09 from chennai office. Three vehicles were arranged two Tempo traveler and one bus.

The fun started from the first step, the bus even it was air bus it did not have ac running. We started one hour late and the route we took was easily the busiest route in chennai. It took almost two hours just to reach Poonamalle. We realized that our was the best vehicle, we had music system, ac running properly and we had the jolly group "Alagu and co".

We continued our way to Bangalore, reached Hosur around 4 pm. We waited for the other vehicle to catch up. Other vehicle did catch up rather it did not even wait for us. We reach the check post, we were asked to pay Rs 2000 but the actual amount was 900 and the bill was made for 900.

Some one from Bangalore had a brilliant idea and mentioned a short cut to reach the resort but he/she herself has not traveled the route , the idea was basically to by pass Bangalore. We started with that road rather it was a national high way , but there was no road only potholes and mud track. The night has already started and the visibility was low . The resort name was " Green Valley resort ",one my colleague on the way saw the "General valley " written on the bill board. We all were very happy we reached the place, only to know that the "Matriculation school" was written in small letter.

So we continued our travel to the valley we saw no roads the cell phone was unreachable and people were irritated. We traveled and reached the bypass road to Bangalore and discovered the actual road to "The Green valley" total dirt track good for testing how good the build quality of the vehicle was. The bus was swaying to a dangerous extent. We at last reached the lap of nature after 12 hour of journey , almost twice the time taken for travel ling from chennai to Bangalore.
more to add...

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

Sunday times

Sivaraj came to Chennai. He announced that the lunch will be his treat and he would announce at the end why?? We order parrota with chicken chemma, some other foods, but we had to wait long time for the dishes to arrive.

At the end we asked him what is the treat for and replied he has proposed to his girl. I inquired what about his parents, he said he has informed them and i asked whether they were convinced he replied i will slowly convinced them . Not even a single in the group believed that, i was the only person who did not laugh at it. People are changing may be he could have changed ...

best luck to my friend

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

Today's dream

After a long time I am posting.

Today morning i had a dream. It was a status meeting with my project manager, I was sitting with my friend /colleague Prakash , with another person an unknown female whose face i was not able to see. There was some print out which was being assessed by the unknown person,she was unsatisfied with my project project report which was clearly visible on her face. The expression was noted by my project manager ...

That is all i remember

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Magazines I like

Magazine , we have variety of a magazine, too much gloss ans shine, my eyes go blind by looking at some them.

My all time favorite has been "Reader Digest", though it is expensive when we look it from out side, it worth month the money we pay for. After reading it we can sense a relaxed atmosphere and a positive outlook that the world is not such a bad place to live. The magazine talks about ordinary people who fougth for a cause bringing justice and save a soul.

The other one is personanal finnace by "Outlook Money" magazine it cost 20 per edition and it is bimonthly, after all proper usuage of money is very important ..

Note :  2014 Outlook Money is monthly edition , 50rs

Thursday, February 01, 2007

GURU Movie review

Two days back i went to watch "Guru" movie. That film was not up to the
expectation neither the songs were.It is a story of man who dreamed big and made it big through unethical means, but the film also portrays a sensitive man who loves his family.

I wonder how many made it to such heights. Mani Ratnam wanted to release
a film which be a hit hindi market, but he lost his touch, even the
choreography of the song was no good. "Mithun dada" was the best, spiced
with Divya balan and Madhavan, short and sweet roles.