High ride on nostalgia

Yesterday i went to my very old friend. It is after 7 seven years Iam meeting her again. She has a kid now.

My friendship as usual last not more than a year during my school days. I changed school in 12th standard. She was in different section and we meet during hindi class. I soon started talking with her and all her colleagues and they were kind of hesitant to talk with me initially but after some time it became alright.

After my 12th i left for studies and i lost all the contacts. After so many year i saw her again and she failed to recognize me but it happens as usual when u meet some one after long time. Now she is happily married. She still maintains the friendship with her classmate. May be i should have tried to make contact with them during the past few years.

Emotion

"Emotion" the word which i do not understand. I have never able to over come the difficulty in speaking what comes in mind. When i want to speak, words with utmost sincerity, the lips do not move.

Simple chit chat is different from strong feelings. In a way, even if do speak, it is quiet blunt, straight on the face. I can watch the sickest movie but not a movie filled with lot of emotional dialogue. I shy away, look here and there , or simple just remove my spectacles( one the best use i make out of my spectacles ).

Socialization another big thing which i am really mediocre. This is how i am, i do not how other see me .. Some consider me adamant and some arrogant (insider news).